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sarcastica_xy
09 December 2013 @ 01:50
It's been a week since Paul Walker died and I still feel incredibly shocked and sad.
Before he died I hadn't paid much attention to him since watching 'She's All That'
and 'Fast & Furious'....but now that I've learned about him, it's even more
depressing that he's gone.

This is the kind of thing that makes me dispute that there's a god. If there is a 'god'
why does he let the good ones always end up getting shit on? Paul did all this work
for charity and where did that get him?

I just think the world's fucked up. Things don't happen for a reason. They're all
coincidences. 
 
 
sarcastica_xy
30 October 2013 @ 22:34
I'm not happy.

I can't really remember the last time I was truly happy.
 
 
sarcastica_xy
28 September 2013 @ 21:52
This week having been absolutely fucking shite.

My parents are literally on the verge of getting divorced and I've been stuck in
the middle of it all for the past three weeks. In the middle of the arguing, the yelling,
the bullshit.

I've felt depressed all week and I got all excited to see my boyfriend tonight and all
he's done is fuck me off.

I just really just wish I could rewind a few years to when everything was good and I was happy.

I fucking hate my life right now. It's absolute bollocks.
 
 
sarcastica_xy
I reblogged something from Supernatural earlier on Tumblr and Alex just saw it and got moody with me. Supernatural is a big part of my life and it has been since I was 11 and began watching it.

When I met Alex, I was 17. Since then I've had to keep Supernatural as a kind of secret because if I mention it or reblog it, god forbid watch it, Alex gets upset/moody with me.

It's pathetic. In a BIG way.

He knows that I love him. He knows that I've loved him for 3 years, he's an actual person and I love him,

But he thinks that I love the show more than him. Which, again, is pathetic. I love the show, of course, it was my escape when I was younger and I've grown up watching it and loving it. Obviously, the cast are some of my favourite people too. But he doesn't see that me loving the show is WAYYY different to me loving him.

It's really getting on my nerves. Like I can't like stuff if he doesn't. I can't have an opinion on things unless his opinion is the same. I can't believe in things if he doesn't. I can't speak my mind because it offends him and says that I'm moaning all the time.

It's just really getting me down, to be honest. I love him, but if he carries on, he'll be on his own and I know for a fact he will not like that. But he promised me that he wouldn't make a big deal about SPN anymore. I've been gently reblogging things on Tumblr, pointing out dvds with the cast in....we even watched Band of Brothers with Richard Speight in. But I don't think he's going to let it go and I'm not sure how long our relationship will carry on if he carries on being a dick over something that's stupid.....
 
 
sarcastica_xy
14 July 2013 @ 13:37
Waking up to the news that Cory Monteith has died has broken my heart.
I haven't paid much attention to Glee for the past few seasons, but he was my favourite
from the pilot episode.....it's devastating to think of Lea right now. She seems like
such a beautiful person, inside and out, this is just heartbreaking.

I really hope for her sake and the people that loved him that it doesn't turn out
to be an overdose on drugs. She stood by him when he entered rehab again,
it'll be a real let down if he relapsed on her two weeks before their wedding.